Daily Local News (West Chester, PA)
Many Black TV viewers left emotionally taxed
NEW YORK >> For some it’s too much to watch. Others just can’t turn away.
The televised trial of Derek Chauvin, the White former police officer charged in the death of George Floyd, has provoked strong emotions among many Black men and women — all tinged with an underlying dread that it could yield yet another devastating disappointment.
For many, it has brought back memories of the disturbing video of Floyd’s last moments as he gasped for breath with Chauvin’s knee on his neck. The video galvanized protests in cities across the U.S. and the world, as the words “Black Lives Matter” took hold.
“I had to mute the TV,” said Lisa Harris, 51, of Redford Township, just west of Detroit. “Hearing Mr. Floyd continue to say he can’t breathe and call for his mother — it was a lot. It’s been a lot to watch.”
Steven Thompson remembers closely watching the 2013 trial of George Zimmerman in the shooting death of 17-year-old Trayvon Martin in Florida and feeling blindsided. Zimmerman, who identifies as Hispanic, was acquitted on all counts in the unarmed Black teen’s death, including second-degree murder.
“I didn’t expect that outcome,” Thompson, 35, said. “But I’m a lot less ignorant now.”
Thompson is choosing not to watch the trial of Chauvin, the former Minneapolis officer charged with murder and manslaughter, even though he feels there is a strong case against him.
“I definitely have a fear of being let down. And instead of investing my time and energy into it now, knowing how these things go, I’d rather be pleasantly surprised,” the Los Angeles resident said.
Marlene Gillings-Gayle said she had planned not to watch the trial to preserve her peace of mind. But she’s found herself watching almost all of it. She’s had to force herself to go outside and take walks, or risk watching the trial all day and feeling upset.
The retired high school teacher who lives in New York City describes herself as a political person who likes to stay aware of current events and vocalize her opinions. “I’m trying not to be pissed, because we’ve been here and done that too many times,” she said, referring to other police officers acquitted in the deaths of unarmed Black people. She’s watching the trial with apprehension as she ponders what Floyd’s killing and the way the trial has unfolded so far say about America and its values.
Chauvin, 45, who eventually was fired from the police force, is accused of killing a handcuffed Floyd last May by pinning his knee on the 46-year-old Black man’s neck for 9 minutes, 29 seconds as he lay facedown. Floyd had been accused of passing a counterfeit $20 bill at a market.
The first week of the trial has included emotional testimonies from several people who witnessed Floyd’s death: the young woman, a teenager at the time, who filmed Floyd’s last moments and told the courtroom she stays “up nights apologizing to George Floyd;” the 61-year-old man who sobbed on the stand, compelling the judge to order a 10-minute recess; the firefighter who begged officers to let her check Floyd’s pulse as he gasped for air, saying, “I was desperate to help.”
The grief and trauma of these witnesses have been on full display, filling in details from new perspectives to create a fuller picture of the scene that people around the world watched over cellphone video last May.
For Kyra Walker, it was enough to tune out and shut down Twitter one day.