Storytelling provides a voice
After gathering with one another for six weeks, veterans share their experiences in ‘liberating’ event.
After gathering with one another for six weeks, military veterans share their experiences in a “liberating” event.
Army and Marine Corps veteran Joel Montes can remember the clicking sound his shoes made as he ascended the front stairs of a house to tell the parents inside that their son wasn’t coming back from Afghanistan.
Navy veteran Richard Castro recalls tripping over a compatriot’s severed leg while rushing to tend to the man after he was felled by a landmine in Vietnam.
Army veteran Al Harvard can recite the joke some of his fellow servicemen made him tell through a mouthful of cigarettes while hanging from a rafter: “Charles Dickens goes into a bar and orders a martini, and the bartender says, ‘Olive or twist?’ ”
Seven Southern California military veterans came together last week to share their memories and experiences in front of an audience of about 150 people during the “Voices — Veterans Storytelling Project” outside the Heroes Hall veterans museum in Costa Mesa.
The project was meant to give veterans a creative outlet to talk about their service and how their experiences have shaped them.
Over six weeks, the participants met to learn more about one another. In many cases, they said, those gatherings were the first time they felt comfortable sharing some of their experiences.
“It’s liberating and absolutely essential for all of us to tell our own story,” said Army veteran Bruce Olav Solheim.
“America does not go to war; individual Americans go to war,” he said. “Our veteran voices need to be heard.”
Navy veteran Donald Pageler was aboard the U.S. spy ship Liberty when it was mistakenly attacked by the Israeli military in 1967.
For years, he said, he was sworn to secrecy about the experience.
He has struggled with post-traumatic stress disorder and dangerously high blood pressure. The latter, he said, was greatly relieved when he was finally able to summon the strength to talk about the ordeal.
“Recovery is a process, not an event, and that process can’t take place if your experiences are hidden,” Pageler said. “When I denied my life’s experiences, I had no identity. You don’t get over your military experience, but you can learn to live with it.”
Though some fond memories of military life do stand out, Tuesday night’s speakers said they still bear physical, emotional and psychological burdens.
“War isn’t just devastation on the frontlines; it destroys us at home too,” Montes said. “Like a virus creeping into our bodies unannounced, it dismantles families, extinguishes hope and handicaps dreams.”
Air Force veteran Frank Barry said he was diagnosed with early-stage prostate cancer in 2011, an aff liction he blames on his exposure to Agent Orange, the defoliant used during the Vietnam War.
“It’s far worse to see children afflicted with maladies we suspect come from our exposure — to think that we are the cause of their hurt and pain,” he said. “Those invisible wounds of war are now visible.”
To Castro, Vietnam evokes memories of gunfire, sweltering heat and “the smell of burnt bodies.”
“My soul carries so many memories of those months, and not one day goes by without thinking about the insanity and the misery of that war,” he said.
Harvard said he doesn’t talk about his combat experiences in Vietnam — he still struggles with the traumatic memories. Yet he said he valued participating in the storytelling project and hearing the stories of the other servicemen.
“I was particularly enchanted by the inflections and the passions that surfaced as the weeks went by,” he said.
Because of the continuing struggle dealing with the horrors of war and the challenges of adapting to civilian life, it’s vital for people to continue supporting veterans after their service has ended, said Eric Kuyper of Costa Mesa, an Army veteran.
“Now, the mission of the people of the United States is to help the veterans in whatever individual way each one needs,” he said. “For some, it’s as simple as a cup of coffee or a pat on the back. But whatever a veteran needs, find that problem and fill it.”