New mom feels no love for firstborn

Dear Amy: I need help. I don’t love my firstborn son. I feel nothing with him. When I hold my second son, my newborn, my heart swells with love. It used to be like that with my first, too, but it’s not like that anymore, and I’m not sure why.

My older son is two-anda-half, and a real handful.

I try to bond with him, but every time I try he’s good for a minute and then starts biting me or slapping me, and I just feel angry again.

I feel so guilty. I want to love him like I love my other son but for now I just pretend to love them the same. What should I do? — Sad Mom

Dear Sad: Your life right now is the very definition of overwhelming. However, you might also be depressed. Postpartum depression affects an estimated 10 percent to 15 percent of new moms. The symptoms include having trouble sleeping or concentrating; anger and having trouble bonding. (You have bonded with your baby, but are now detached from your toddler.)

You should see your doctor as soon as possible. Describe in detail how you are feeling.

Also understand that your son’s behavior is linked with yours. He is also overwhelmed; he wants to be a baby again. Offer him a special blankie or stuffed toy to hug for those times when he’s feeling needy.

For expert wisdom, I shared your question with Gay Cioffi, a parent-coach (littlefolksbigquestions.com), and former director of the Little Folks School in Washington, D.C.

She says, “Toddlers will inevitably challenge parents as they try to figure out where their needs begin and end. Add an infant, and a parent who is feeling overwhelmed and disconnected, and the situation is magnified further.

“Even when we do not feel calm and loving, it is our responsibility to try to send that message — or get the support we need to get there.