Love opens up on mental health issues

CLEVELAND» Suffering for years in silence, Kevin Love opened up about his struggles with mental health.

The Cavaliers forward writes in an essay for the Players’ Tribune that he had a panic attack during a game this season and he has spent most of his life afraid to accept there was something wrong with him.

“For 29 years, I thought about mental health as someone else’s problem,” he said.

Love says he was stricken with anxiety Nov. 5 during a home game against the Atlanta Hawks. Love adds that he had been under family stress and hadn’t been sleeping well.

After briefly being winded while playing 15 minutes in the first half, he felt his heart racing and couldn’t catch his breath during a timeout in the third quarter.

“It’s hard to describe, but everything was spinning, like my brain was trying to climb out of my head,” said Love, a five-time All-Star now sidelined after breaking his left hand last month. “The air felt thick and heavy. My mouth was like chalk. I remember our assistant coach yelling something about a defensive set.

“I nodded, but I didn’t hear much of what he said. By that point, I was freaking out.”

Love was taken to the Cleveland Clinic, but tests didn’t reveal anything abnormal. He returned to playing at a high level, but he was puzzled by what happened and burdened about people finding out.

Although he did not mention it in his essay, titled “Everyone Is Going Through Something,” Love left a Jan. 20 game against Oklahoma City under similar circumstances. He also missed the team’s practice the following day.

Those absences prompted the now infamous heated team meeting in which former teammate Isaiah Thomas and others questioned why Love had been excused.

The exchange led to tense days around the Cavs, who rebuilt their roster by trading Thomas and four other players before the deadline.

Love’s father, Stan, also played in the NBA.

Kevin Love says he always struggled with the stigma attached to an athlete who shows weakness.

“Growing up, you figure out really quickly how a boy is supposed to act,” he said. “You learn what it takes to ‘be a man.’ It’s like a playbook: Be strong. Don’t talk about your feelings. Get through it on your own. So for 29 years of my life, I followed that playbook.”