The Denver Post

“IT’S NOT ABOUT GETTING BACK TO BUSINESS AS USUAL”

Residents, experts talk about feelings of trauma, moving toward healing

- By Katie Langford

One expert warns people’s reactions to the King Soopers shooting may be delayed if they’re already dealing with trauma.

Ten lives were cut short March 22, stolen by a man with a gun at a King Soopers in south Boulder, and community members are now wading through grief that is both unimaginab­le and too familiar.

Longtime resident Roy Perry’s grandson, a student at Fairview High School, visits that King Soopers every day during the school year. Thank God, Perry said, it was spring break. Thank God he wasn’t in school this past week, that Perry’s stepdaught­er wasn’t at the store she so often frequents.

“It’s hard to put into words, how you can be so horribly sad and angry at the same time and not know what to do with that,” he said.

Perry was among the crowds of people who visited the memorial at 3600 Table Mesa Drive this past week, a steady stream of mourners placing bouquets and candles, photograph­s and messages in front of the fenced-off grocery store, its windows broken out.

Crying, holding each other, watching in silence. Bearing witness.

Perry remembers visiting a similar memorial outside Columbine High School in 1999, when two gunmen killed 13 people. The flowers, the signs, the photos.

“It’s the same damn thing again,” Perry said, speaking through tears. “It feels so out of control.”

Rachel Shearer often visited the shopping complex when she was working as a seasonal employee for Boulder County, stopping in for a Starbucks drink at King Soopers after teaching lessons about local history at nearby schools. She went to physical therapy at a medical office next door.

Shearer lives in Arvada, a mile from where the shooter lived.

“It’s that feeling of helplessne­ss, of anger turned to disbelief,” she said. “My family moved here in ’97 for a better life, and a year and a half later the shooting at Columbine High School happened … it’s like you don’t know what’s

normal.”

There is no quick fix for the trauma that Boulder community members are now processing, said Beverly Kingston, director of the Center for the Study and Prevention of Violence at the University of Colorado Boulder. Kingston’s work focuses on violence prevention, but she’s also worked side-by-side with survivors of the Columbine, Sandy Hook Elementary School and Arapahoe High School shootings.

“What I’ve heard from survivors is that once this happens, your life is different than it was before. It’s never the same,” she said.

Kingston said she’s seeing people already coming together, and that kind of connection is a cornerston­e for communitie­s healing from traumatic events such as a mass shooting.

“It can almost crack us open to have that kind of pain, to open up to the love we can have for each other,” she said. “I think it’s going to be really important that we have ways as a community to come together, acknowledg­e what’s happened and use all the tools that are positive to bring us together, not apart, from this violent act. That community wins, not violence.”

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CE There have been enough mass shootings in the United States that researcher­s can study what happens to the people and communitie­s who survive, what helps them move forward.

In the immediate aftermath, much of the focus is on people who are directly impacted by the shooting, said Monica Fitzgerald, senior research associate at CU Boulder’s Institute for Behavioral Science and faculty member at the Center for the Study and Prevention of Violence. That can look like making sure people who worked at King Soopers and are now out of work still have a way to pay bills or psychologi­cal first aid for survivors who witnessed the shooting.

It’s important to establish human connection and validate how people are feeling, Fitzgerald said. Reactions can include fear, anger, sadness, numbness and callousnes­s. People might notice themselves feeling extra-anxious in public places or looking for places to hide in a grocery store.

“People in the community are going to have reactions that are very normal but can feel very overwhelmi­ng,” Fitzgerald said. “These kinds of events sometimes shake our sense of security and safety, these everyday experience­s, these places you normally feel safe in.”

Even experts find themselves having those reactions. Fitzgerald said she noticed it Tuesday, when her daughter needed eggs for a recipe. The King Soopers on Table Mesa Drive was one of Fitzgerald’s main grocery stores, and walking into another store Tuesday she noticed herself having a stress reaction — elevated heart rate, faster breathing.

“You have to know this is normal but also cope and find ways to feel calm and grounded,” she said. Look at how to connect with people, how to feel safe, address your immediate needs, calm and orient yourself.

Some people might have bigger reactions and feel more unsafe because of other scary situations they’ve been in, Fitzgerald said.

“If it’s getting in the way of how you engage with your life, that’s when you want to reach out for additional support and maybe a more formal interventi­on and treatment,” she said. “If it gets in the way of functionin­g, you might need another layer of mental health support.”

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In the days and weeks to come, the internatio­nal spotlight shining on Boulder will move on, and the onslaught of attention will slow.

But grief does not have any such timeline, and healing does schedule.

“In the mental health world we have to have services and support ongoing, letting people know in their time that we’re here for them,” Fitzgerald said. “We’re not going anywhere, this isn’t just going to be here until the next hard thing comes. We’re here for you in an ongoing way.”

Some people’s reactions may be different or delayed because they’re already dealing with trauma, said Sona Dimidjian, director of the Renée Crown Wellness Institute at CU Boulder.

“What I’ve heard from people is it’s almost an inability to even process the informatio­n because there’s so many traumas layered on top of each other,” she said. “Traumas of loss and injustice related to the COVID public health crisis, the level of economic stress people are experienci­ng, repeated racial injustices including multiple racially motivated murders — and now we have this.”

Continue to check in with yourself and acknowledg­e your feelings, even before you reach out to help others, Fitzgerald said.

“It’s not about getting back to business as usual on Monday,” Dimidjian said. “It’s continuing to validate, affirm, support, acknowledg­e, feel, honor and mourn.”

Reach out to loved ones, faith communitie­s, support groups, she said. Participat­e in meaningful ways, whether that’s visiting a memorial or attending a funeral.

“We know there’s no timeline of the reaction, of the processing, the coping. There’s great resilience in this community and many communitie­s to adapt and withstand hardship and adversity,” Fitzgerald said. “Resilience is universal but it can also be cultivated and taught.”

Many of the survivors that Kingston works with turn to activism and prevention.

“I think that’s one of the things we can do to help serve the survivors, is to do everything we can so that nobody has to go through this again.” not stick to a

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