No Opening Day: Ex-major leaguers struggle with retirement
SAN FRANCISCO » Todd Helton now regularly drives his two daughters to school or other activities back home in Tennessee, a huge life change for Colorado’s former All-Star first baseman.
He had no idea walking away from baseball would be such a daunting and overwhelming adjustment. The daily routine that had become part of his DNA — the bantering, the batting practice, the games — replaced by chauffeuring kids, helping around the house and some golf.
“It was the hardest thing I’ve ever done in my life,” Helton said. “I’ve been a baseball player since I could walk, always knew I was going to be a baseball player.”
As baseball begins anew, many former players realize just how tough it is.
No more opening days. No adrenaline rush from batting with the bases loaded and two outs in front of 40,000 fans going crazy. No clubhouse camaraderie, sharing a goal of reaching the World Series.
The planes, the hotels, the autograph seekers and, sure, the money. But a structure totally built around being at the stadium, suddenly replaced by mundane tasks with nobody watching.
“You step away and the game goes on without you, no matter how great you were,” former outfielder Randy Winn said. “And there are some really great players standing around here that aren’t playing anymore: world champions, All-Stars, Barry (Bonds) walks in and some of the greatest of all time. And the game goes on. There’s younger people that come in that get talked about. That’s maybe not the hardest thing but it’s kind of the ‘What’s next for me?’ that is the hard part.”
Injuries forced ex-San Francisco pitcher Noah Lowry to retire early , and he now owns an outdoors store in Northern California and joined the Chamber of Commerce.
Like Helton, he also felt lost without his sport. “I felt dead inside,” Lowry said. One-time Giants teammate Jack Taschner became a police officer in Wisconsin. He blossomed into an internet sensation last fall when he showed up at a high school football game and fooled fans by leading a group cheer in the stands.
Helton retired after the 2013 season following a 17-year career, all with the Rockies. He returned to Coors Field last Sept. 15 for a reunion of the 2007 NL champions who were swept by Boston in the World Series. While there, Helton visited a back room in the clubhouse and reminisced while looking at the bat rack where his lumber once rested.
It can be a difficult change even when you know your time’s up. Especially for those players who didn’t earn the kind of salaries to support them for decades to come.
“If you’re lucky you’re in your mid-30s, right? Let’s say you make it to the big leagues when you’re 25 and if you’re lucky you play five years — you’re 30 years old,” said Winn, who retired in April 2011 after 13 major league seasons in the outfield with Tampa Bay, Seattle, San Francisco, the New York Yankees and St. Louis.
“You have 50 years of being retired, so that’s daunting. Even if you do play 20 years you still have a lot of years on the other side to figure out kind of ‘What do I want to do?’ Fred McGriff told me when I first retired — that’s my guy, he took me under his wing when I was a rookie — he said, ‘Randy, there’s only so much golf you can play.”’
Retired reliever Scott Eyre, who pitched 13 big league seasons with five teams, announced “I need a job!” in a Facebook post on Aug. 31.
Those still working in baseball realize how fortunate they are to have stayed part of the game they love.
“I always planned to be involved in the game. I never dreamed I would be managing, that was new for me,” said A.J. Hinch of the World Series champion Houston Astros. “But being able to be in the game, it’s what we know, it’s what we love. We’re used to the rigors and the routine of the season.
“It’s hard to be away. You spend so much time on a baseball team or in a baseball season, it’s impossible not to miss it.”