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"A beautiful, poised, and thought-provoking debut about love, loss, coming out, and discovering living life on your own terms." —New York Times bestselling author Kathleen Glasgow

There are two things that Corinne Parker knows to be true: that she is in love with Maggie Bailey, the captain of the rival high school's cross-country team and her secret girlfriend of a year, and that she isn't ready for anyone to know she's bisexual.

But then Maggie dies, and Corinne quickly learns that the only thing worse than losing Maggie is being left heartbroken over a relationship no one knows existed. And to make things even more complicated, the only person she can turn to is Elissa—Maggie's ex, and the single person who understands how Corinne is feeling.

As Corinne struggles to make sense of her grief and what she truly wants out of life, she begins to have feelings for the last person she should fall for. But to move forward after losing Maggie, Corinne will have to learn to be honest with the people in her life...starting with herself.


What happens when the only person who understands your secret grief is the one person you’re not supposed to fall for?


  • Secret Girlfriend: For a year, Corinne and Maggie were in love, and no one knew. Now that Maggie’s gone, that secret is the heaviest burden of all.
  • Grief and Loss: Forced to mourn in silence, Corinne struggles to navigate a world without the person she loved most while pretending she feels nothing.
  • Complicated Feelings: The only person who understands what Corinne lost is Maggie’s ex-girlfriend, Elissa, and their shared grief sparks an unexpected and confusing connection.
  • Coming Out Story: To find a future for herself, Corinne must first be honest about her past—and her own bisexuality—in a town where everyone knows everyone’s business.

About the author(s)

Nita Tyndall is an award-winning queer author and literary translator whose writing and translations have appeared on Autostraddle and in World Literature Today. They are also the author of Who I Was with Her and Nothing Sung and Nothing Spoken. They currently live in North Carolina.

Reviews

"Rival cross-country high school athletes Corinne and Maggie are lovers but have kept their relationship a secret; when Maggie dies, Corinne is left to grieve alone. The story is told in alternating before/after timelines, so readers experience Corinne’s romance with Maggie as well as the aftermath of her death. Suspense is ramped up well as the plot develops to reveal who else knew about but kept their relationship a secret, why, and at what cost. The focus on bisexuality is welcome." - Kirkus Reviews

"A beautiful, poised, and thought-provoking debut about love, loss, coming out, and discovering living life on your own terms."  - New York Times bestselling author Kathleen Glasgow

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