Description

From the critically acclaimed author of Say What You Will and A Step Toward Falling comes a deeply emotional new novel, perfect for fans of Five Feet Apart and The Fault in Our Stars.

David Scheinman is the popular president of his senior class, battling cystic fibrosis.

Jamie Turner is a quiet sophomore, struggling with depression.

The pair soon realizes that they’re able to be more themselves with each other than they can be with anyone else, and their unlikely friendship starts to turn into something so much more.

But neither Jamie nor David can bring themselves to reveal the secrets that weigh most heavily on their hearts—and their time for honesty may be running out.


  • Unlikely Friendship: He’s the popular senior class president. She’s the quiet sophomore who feels invisible. When they meet in the hospital, they discover a connection they can’t find with anyone else.
  • Friends to Lovers: An honest, witty email exchange becomes the one place they can be their true selves, sparking a romance that’s as hopeful as it is complicated.
  • Cystic Fibrosis and Depression: A poignant exploration of living with both a chronic physical illness and the invisible struggles of mental health, told from a raw, dual perspective.
  • A Coming of Age Love Story: With secrets weighing on both of them and time running out, David and Jamie must find the courage to be honest before they lose their chance at a future together.

About the author(s)

Cammie McGovern is the author of Say What You Will as well as the adult novels Neighborhood Watch, Eye Contact, and The Art of Seeing. Cammie is also one of the founders of Whole Children, a resource center that runs after-school classes and programs for children with special needs. She lives in Amherst, Massachusetts, with her husband and three children.

Reviews

"Approach[es] difficult topics from sensitive, age-appropriate perspectives. The resolution, like the teens’ relationship, unfolds carefully, without sugarcoating, and feels genuinely earned." - Horn Book Magazine

"The novel is extraordinary for its unflinching look at both depression and chronic illness. Without sugarcoating, sentimentalizing, or trivializing either, it never slips into pathos. The depiction of mental health struggles is profoundly accurate and understanding. A gift to readers." - Kirkus Reviews (starred review)

"The shifting perspectives add nice depth. McGovern skillfully imbues her characters with realistic voices. With a plot that moves swiftly, ratcheting up the tension until the crisis, this brilliant, nuanced, and hopeful title will have wide appeal, particularly from fans of authors such as John Green or Sarah Dessen." - Booklist (starred review)

"McGovern deftly handles the classic sickbed romance elements of her story, but what makes the tale especially rich is the alternating narration. Thoughtful romance fans will appreciate the dimensionality of the characters and the lack of inevitability about the protagonists’ final resolution; non-romance readers will also find the authenticity of the human dynamics here a rewarding read." - Bulletin of the Center for Children’s Books

"McGovern skillfully raises the dramatic tension. David’s surreal out-of-body episodes [are] reminiscent of those in Gayle Forman’s If I Stay. Sobering in its exploration of mental and physical illness, McGovern’s sensitive, well-crafted novel leads readers to an optimistic outcome." - Publishers Weekly

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